But you sweared you loved me more.

the cat cheated. it copied.

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 11:10:17 GMT

hmmm.

have a sense of individuality.
TELL THE TRUTH , for once ah puhleaseee.
dont be so thick skinned, you know who likes and dislikes you.
youre nice, but youre a liar.

goodbyeeee.

+h0ugH+$!

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 10:40:35 GMT

today. another trouble.
another heartache.
another disappointment.
time to stop all these troubles.
they are unnecessary.
being a rebel was never cool.
time to stop these quarrells.
these petty arguments.
time for a stop to all.
time for a change.
today someone told me smth.
that everyonne has been telling me for the past year.
however,
i never taken it into consideration.
now its time to think.
(blinded by love?)
its time to seriously consider.
sometimes,
if everyone is saying the same thing.
there must be a reason or a cause.
so stop and think angela.
yes..
maybe
it isnt that all worth it?
i dont know.
im thinking.
loooking for an answer.
let's make this last forever?
think....

why.

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 09:50:00 GMT

does life... dont turn out th way you want it to.
such bullcrap.

hello world.

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 13:26:58 GMT

hellooo.
yes it isnt over yet.
its too early.
hmmm.
today was a huge shopping spree for meeeeee.
spent like over 400 bucks woohoo
hmmm i got a present for my baby.
hope he likes it!

REGRETS.

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 15:33:06 GMT

i hope this is not over yet.
i hope this is not over yet
i hope this is not over yet.
we finally got this far
we finally got this far
we finally got this far
we finally got this far
we finally got this far
i hope this is not over yet.
i hope this is not over yet
i hope this is not over yet.
we finally got this far
we finally got this far
we finally got this far
we finally got this far
we finally got this far
i hope this is not over yet.
i hope this is not over yet
i hope this is not over yet.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
someone kill me please,
before i start to kill someone!

Im sorry.

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 14:51:52 GMT

Im sorry for the person i am today.
HOWEVER, if you do not like it,
you can just fuck offffffffff.
FUCK OFFF.
i got no fucking moooooddd.
NO FUCKING MOOOOOD;.
no bloody fucking mood.
step on my toe. ill make your life miserable.
or i think i would
if im capable of doing that that is.
heh.
see the pms
do you like it?
i bet you dont
SO HEY!
FUCK OFFFFFF.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hurrah.i need this most.honestly.

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 12:25:00 GMT

Hellooo.

didnt go sch today, had rashes(exzeemer)-yay
went for haircut, bad haircut.-oh nooooo
went to pass pack to jon, gave yoji book-sooosoooo
watch red cliff and realised its(TOBECONTINUED...)-booo
CLIFFORDS BIRDAY! i didnt meet him ):-saaaad
bored HOWEVVEEERRR,can wake up l cos its wednezdae tmr-wohoooo
im being lame, right now.-yeap.

ANYWAESZS, to my important brothyyyyybroth CLIFFORD GOH YOU HONK.
HAPPYBIRTHDAY! we all love you la red furness.

and nowww. back to bed and attempts to study abitty.
prolly msg some ppl to few lez bored.
i hear im sitting with lisa from nowwww onnnn. hurrah.
BUT, im getting further in front ): damnshitzo.
what would i do withouht my phonee?
oh dear, tmr facing ppl with my bad haircut, i wonder....

Just felt like typing out my friends that are funfunfun!
brothy:clifford goh
wife:sindy tan
and th rest are,
chew
kenEarthworm
benBESTfr, (LOL)
the bestbestbestbestbestest!:FAHZEELXTANGZXIANGZWEIX! (muwarh)
HAPPY18 months and one day.
miss you like one crazy fool by th way.
but i know you miss me more. kkz wtvr, i know im thick skin. SO!
enuf of this crap! out.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoxxxxxxx

~~THE END~~

you got me wrongggg. all wrongggg.

Sat, 06 Sep 2008 12:03:07 GMT

okay. what i feel? -disgusted.
urgh. like super disgusted laa.
ok stop angela!
hmmm.,
dear____, its not abt you. seriously.
haha. but if you want it to be, then by all means?
big moutttttttttth.
:]

bitchx?

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 10:55:41 GMT

youre being a bitch. if you think these will make you
get back wht you lost.
i wna try tht out too.
tang :
you fucker make me worried sick only.
i got like damn alot of things to tell you la!
okay anyway i miss you (:
OH well. there wont be peace, if you dont WANT peace.
isnt tht th way things work?

Gotta let things go the way they should.

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 09:48:47 GMT

I don't know why.
i feel for ppl who are close to me.
like when theyre sad, im sad.
theyre angry, im angry.
amazing how my feelings work.
imissyou.
i feel like im floating away,.
when your minds a blank,
and you dont know anything,
you forgot everything.
you can hardly feel.
you cant remember any past.
no memories.
wouldnt that be scary?

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 15:51:58 GMT

im blowing hot and cold.

somedays, i feel you treat me like crap

somedays i feel youre really an awesome friend.

maybe it isnt poser shit after all.

its more of influence?

haiyur.

minmin, no hard feelings taken dont wry (:
glad we're cleared up!

mr.tang sorry for burning your hair up ):
your reaction was one in a million laa.
cant wait to do that again.

wifey. muwarh,

goodnight to all.
can anyone be trusted nowadays?

OHDAMN.

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 10:46:44 GMT

I wouldnt know why id feel this way.,
but bitch just fuck off la kay?
you bloody poser shits,
get a life la.,
and if you gonna say you already had one,
think again,,
stop deceiving yourself la.
nvm, youll get what you deserve.
anw.
faizal i love you!
sindy wife get well soon, your red eye :D
and thatsabout it. im outtttt.

Why oh why, cant we all understand?

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 10:43:26 GMT

i read some stuff that affected me, but however i feel it has affected the involving person even more.
haiyo. i just dont know how to explain myself.
cos be it the truth or not, you two would still feel the same way.
you can be once in love with a person,
but after its all done and over, you can also have absolutely NO feelings for that person whatsoever.
And after all, we are ALL friends .
neither of us would like things to turn out ugly, do we?
you two are just like how we treat one another.
best of friends, maybe the only difference is that we two had history..
I myself would like to be good friends with you, i never disliked you from the start.
I hope its the same otherwise too.
One thing i would really wanna find out, is that tingtong, did you think one way.
ohmyyyyy, i stress my previous post about trust.
if you trust me, you would not doubt me,
but then again, its natural for ppl to think offtrack when it matters to them.
I just hope, all of us, we could be friends,
no misunderstandings whatsoever.
I finally seen through who i can trust, and who trusts me.
Its rather sad though, that its not really how i expected things to turn out.
Im not greedy, i love tangtang.
should i explain anything, and if i do.
woaaaaaah, i really dont know where to start.
i love you, faizal tang xiang wei.
different sides of the same story,
letsspeakonlythetruth, shall we?
.e.en.e is not a nice thing yknow.
glad yall were nice.

its up to you to believe.

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 10:24:24 GMT

its up to you to believe me
but the time we spent with each other should be more than suffecient for you to know what kind of person i am
trust, is fragile
however, you can choose whether to break that trust
cos my trust that i have in you,
is definitely still there
forever here for you.

your words against mine.

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 14:04:31 GMT

im so angry today!
today tang made me do smth stupid, bcos of smth stupid he lied abt!
(tang you should know what, i still havent killed you for this)
i went back to hostel, i saw jingmei darling, shiyun sweety, xiaosam cheater,
germaine, blabla sejia all lah.
didnt get to see my hubby though.
aight, AG changed alot, hope i dont have to go back.
nownow, gonna die staying with family for sat and sun,
but gotta get through it!
meeting tang on monday.
got the high tea shit in the afternoon.
hmm, today while cooking i received a msg and it scared/worried me.
wah lucky nth bad happened uh!
if not ill lose yet another chatting partner.
NOT SOME ARSE THATS JUST ANOTHER (H) ster.
like hello.
to believed i thought you would be a great FRIEND.
your words? id never take it for real ever again.
id savour this last chance th ppl arnd me have given me.
no more running away from my problems.
time to face them hahhaha.
just couldnt believe i said that la.
my head hurts need some sleeeeeeep!
sorry tangy cant company you to your carnival thingy tmr.
well if i could, i know you know id definitely would.
i need to get my mind off.... stuffffffffffff. you
oh well. reality check.
wake up one day, youd probably be long gggggg o n e.
someone just spell presssss-ssssureee.

why oh why.

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 09:13:15 GMT

A super duper long post anyone?
firstly, IM BACK!
but not for long... read on laaa.
okay anyone running away this time has been the most fufilling thing ive done in my life.
cos ive met ppl who are really nice and ive spent time with ppl i most willingly needed to.'
anyway im not gonna tell you the details mainly because there are too many things that happened.
ohhh

Nothing really matters...,

Sat, 03 May 2008 09:25:53 GMT

On the verge of doing something unexpected, although i havent really figured out what.
oh well recently have been either NOT sleeping, or OVER sleeping,
and the dreams i have really amaze me.
they are fucking creepy la.
some sorts of nightmares.
and then when it comes to night again i will feel that feeling, envy.
how others can do what they want, or at least not coped up like me.
if only pills could make me think otherwise,
if only i am soooo obedient,
i wont be thinking all this.
but its really eating the insides,
and wherever i plan to go will just kill me,
so the same if i were to stay at this spot.
yesyes, im stuck.
whatever i were to do, is never ever enough,.
:D but anyway, ANGELA, GET OVER IT,
ISN'T THIS WHAT LIFES ALL ABOUT?
WHOEVER LIVES, ULTIMATELY DIES ALONE.
Life is one long insane trip. Some people just have better directions.- Donnie darko,
an insanely perfect movie. oh how i wished..

I mean it when i say.

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 09:56:29 GMT

I miss hostel days.
the days when even though im in with all the chao ah lians.
we feel like family.
we are like one family.
and at least, over there,
i dont get constant nags, like i do at my own home.
everyday, its like im being questioned.
" what time you home?
why so late?
have you been studying?
how was school?"
and when you ask, its as if you think i did smth wrong.
its not like ive got no family.
i do. but the way it is.. its just terrible.
must you always test me, seriously, honestly.
ill be at war with you for as long as you make me go against
what i want, my freedom.
forever however long it takes.
its still worth the fight,
cause yall obviously take things all too seriously.
i miss hostel ): HAHA.
when im out i want to be in.
when im in i want to be out again.

WAH!

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 08:47:58 GMT

knnbccb!
some people really got no sense of originality la sia.
put my blog words into their profile all.
OMG OMGOMG
freaking me out laa.
HAHAHAHA.
i laughed so hard
my leg got numb
i punched my leg,
and my hand hurt instead -.-
HAAHAHH!
okaye, anyway, i know who you like still.
so pleaaaaseee. i hope im not wrong.

since when.

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 10:28:59 GMT

for the past 48 hours,
i have been doing really outrageous stuff with my mind.
i think i need a break.
take a leak,
take a peak
whatever,
i dont know what im saying half the time.
when im around, i feel somewhere else.
i feel like dreaming into space
now i remember to mention all the weird dreams lately.
they are really weird.
my hands are stained .
and so is my life.
exams, to think im actually studying.
one progress angela. just onee.
i have tummyaches,
i need to shit.
im scared to shit in school.
i need company.
whats wrong with me, no no, seriously
what the fuck is wrong with me,
and i dont need attention.
hahaha. god notices me hands down ;D
god if you ARE out there.
answer my calls, answer my prayers,
OH PRETTY PLEASE? (:

300

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 13:29:04 GMT

THIS SHOW FUCKING ROCKS LA.
although violent, its very sad ):
And all the hot bods waaah i tell you.
shiok to watch (:
anyway goodnight.
imissmytangtang.

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 15:23:46 GMT

yay !i love youuuu.
Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away!

The truth. hurts?... History repeating itself.

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 07:57:32 GMT

Im waiting for pictures of today, and tuesdays.
This is gonna be a loooooooooooooong post, so get ready.
I sometimes wish, i can find someone who's like me,
thinks like me, have the same body size as me, talk like me,
EVERRYTTHINGG like me, don't you?
We will never fall in love with each other,
and due to my insecurities, and me finding a duplicate of me,
i will trust myself with this person,
telling her how much i don't understand the simple principles of life,
why people intrude into your privacy and make it complicated.
It's like meeting GOD, but god doesnt have my flaws.
don't get it the wrong way, im not saying im god with flaws.
but knowing someone exactly like you? impossible.
I don't even know/believe/feeeeel a god out there at times, (MOST of the time)
and next in line should be parents, but mine?
how can i trust them when IM GUARDING AGAINST THEM,
you don't want me to make you my enemy, but can't you see you're forcing me to?
I'll be a robin that will bite it's tongue off and die, when locked and cooped up in a cage.
You try that, and you tell me how that feels.
So you've been reading my livejournal?
so where has your guts on doing the RIGHT THING gone?
'it's for my own good' is total bullshit, you know,i know.
you play actors, acting even better than i can.
you can't lie to a liar however.
you'll end up getting cheated.
So you wanna read all these? are you sure?
you can read it like i jolly well care, cause you have been the block thats been
constantly hindering my development so to say.
my life at risk, hostel, gp whatever? do i play the BIGGEST part in the wrongs?
whatever, say that im pushing the blame to you or whatever.
let me tell you this, I DONT FREAKING CARE.
You asked me to change? ive been giving and giving and giving.
now telll me what have you GIVEN me, dont tell me love?!
gotta be kidding me.
Im not a coward that posts up stupid stuff about my parents.
Ive tried telling you, talking to you.
but you treat whatever ive ever said like total bullshit.
youre like nearly 50? youve got experience, so what?
that doesnt mean youre 24/7 265 days every min every second right.
things are getting better with me and you,
you know ill always love snail.

HAPPY OH HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAIZAL TANG!

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 08:18:43 GMT

OKAY,YES i stole this from frienster but who the fuck cares!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU.
hope you like the cacat pressy.
but anyways, great to see you, and bob today.
you didnt take the freaking snail la walaooo!
okay anyway, i hate this bitch,
if she dislikes me cause of you so be it.
let her go die la k.
i dont like her since the day her face was visible.
FUCK HER LA.
okkk, happy birthday once again! (:

How i wisssssssh.

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 08:10:05 GMT

hahah. today was a headache, anyhow, i really dont know what to give tang.
no snails.. how! so im going to give him some crap!
alrighty, i hate busy weeks,
Monday-nothing much
Tuesday-stupis sandwich shit
Wednesday-5 items!!
Thursday-nothing
Friday-sindy's performance!!
okayeee, for me considered busy lah. i mean well compared to other times....
Alright! im waiting for tangs call.
And i seem to dislike people who think they know everything,
when truth is they no nothing at all.
k whatever. money is such a headacheee!
cheeeaoooo.
(:
i love snails.