hmmm.

have a sense of individuality.
TELL THE TRUTH , for once ah puhleaseee.
dont be so thick skinned, you know who likes and dislikes you.
youre nice, but youre a liar.

goodbyeeee.

today. another trouble.
another heartache.
another disappointment.
time to stop all these troubles.
they are unnecessary.
being a rebel was never cool.
time to stop these quarrells.
these petty arguments.
time for a stop to all.
time for a change.
today someone told me smth.
that everyonne has been telling me for the past year.
however,
i never taken it into consideration.
now its time to think.
(blinded by love?)
its time to seriously consider.
sometimes,
if everyone is saying the same thing.
there must be a reason or a cause.
so stop and think angela.
yes..
maybe
it isnt that all worth it?
i dont know.
im thinking.
loooking for an answer.
let's make this last forever?
think....

Im sorry for the person i am today.
HOWEVER, if you do not like it,
you can just fuck offffffffff.
FUCK OFFF.
i got no fucking moooooddd.
NO FUCKING MOOOOOD;.
no bloody fucking mood.
step on my toe. ill make your life miserable.
or i think i would
if im capable of doing that that is.
heh.
see the pms
do you like it?
i bet you dont
SO HEY!
FUCK OFFFFFF.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

• didnt go sch today, had rashes(exzeemer)-yay
• went for haircut, bad haircut.-oh nooooo
• went to pass pack to jon, gave yoji book-sooosoooo
• watch red cliff and realised its(TOBECONTINUED...)-booo
• CLIFFORDS BIRDAY! i didnt meet him ):-saaaad
• bored HOWEVVEEERRR,can wake up l cos its wednezdae tmr-wohoooo
• im being lame, right now.-yeap.

youre being a bitch. if you think these will make you
get back wht you lost.
i wna try tht out too.
tang :
you fucker make me worried sick only.
i got like damn alot of things to tell you la!
okay anyway i miss you (:
OH well. there wont be peace, if you dont WANT peace.
isnt tht th way things work?

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Im fucken

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complacent

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I don't know why.
i feel for ppl who are close to me.
like when theyre sad, im sad.
theyre angry, im angry.
amazing how my feelings work.
imissyou.
i feel like im floating away,.
when your minds a blank, 
and you dont know anything,
you forgot everything.
you can hardly feel.
you cant remember any past.
no memories.
wouldnt that be scary?

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Im fucken

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cold

]

i read some stuff that affected me, but however i feel it has affected the involving person even more.
haiyo. i just dont know how to explain myself.
cos be it the truth or not, you two would still feel the same way.
you can be once in love with a person,
but after its all done and over, you can also have absolutely NO feelings for that person whatsoever.
And after all, we are ALL friends .
neither of us would like things to turn out ugly, do we?
you two are just like how we treat one another.
best of friends, maybe the only difference is that we two had history..
I myself would like to be good friends with you, i never disliked you from the start.
I hope its the same otherwise too.
One thing i would really wanna find out, is that tingtong, did you think one way.
ohmyyyyy, i stress my previous post about trust.
if you trust me, you would not doubt me,
but then again, its natural for ppl to think offtrack when it matters to them.
I just hope, all of us, we could be friends,
no misunderstandings whatsoever.
I finally seen through who i can trust, and who trusts me.
Its rather sad though, that its not really how i expected things to turn out.
Im not greedy, i love tangtang.
should i explain anything, and if i do.
woaaaaaah, i really dont know where to start.
i love you, faizal tang xiang wei.
different sides of the same story,
letsspeakonlythetruth, shall we?
.e.en.e is not a nice thing yknow.
glad yall were nice.

im so angry today!
today tang made me do smth stupid, bcos of smth stupid he lied abt! 
(tang you should know what, i still havent killed you for this)
i went back to hostel, i saw jingmei darling, shiyun sweety, xiaosam cheater,
germaine, blabla sejia all lah.
didnt get to see my hubby though.
aight, AG changed alot, hope i dont have to go back.
nownow, gonna die staying with family for sat and sun,
but gotta get through it!
meeting tang on monday.
got the high tea shit in the afternoon.
hmm, today while cooking i received a msg and it scared/worried me.
wah lucky nth bad happened uh!
if not ill lose yet another chatting partner.
NOT SOME ARSE THATS JUST ANOTHER (H) ster.
like hello.
to believed i thought you would be a great FRIEND.
your words? id never take it for real ever again.
id savour this last chance th ppl arnd me have given me.
no more running away from my problems.
time to face them hahhaha.
just couldnt believe i said that la.
my head hurts need some sleeeeeeep!
sorry tangy cant company you to your carnival thingy tmr.
well if i could, i know you know id definitely would.
i need to get my mind off.... stuffffffffffff. you
oh well. reality check.
wake up one day, youd probably be long gggggg o n e.
someone just spell presssss-ssssureee.

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Im fucken

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aggravated

]

On the verge of doing something unexpected, although i havent really figured out what.
oh well recently have been either NOT sleeping, or OVER sleeping,
and the dreams i have really amaze me.
they are fucking creepy la.
some sorts of nightmares.
and then when it comes to night again i will feel that feeling, envy.
how others can do what they want, or at least not coped up like me.
if only pills could make me think otherwise,
if only i am soooo obedient,
i wont be thinking all this.
but its really eating the insides,
and wherever i plan to go will just kill me,
so the same if i were to stay at this spot.
yesyes, im stuck.
whatever i were to do, is never ever enough,.
:D but anyway, ANGELA, GET OVER IT,
ISN'T THIS WHAT LIFES ALL ABOUT?
WHOEVER LIVES, ULTIMATELY DIES ALONE.
Life is one long insane trip. Some people just have better directions.- Donnie darko,
an insanely perfect movie. oh how i wished..